Boxers

Now, I know it is not strictly a vampire matter, but I am trying to branch out from the usual posts of saying things like "I had deer blood!!!" and such.

I recently purchased some new boxers (yes I am a boxer man....) and I wanted to post what they look like.

Disclaimer: The following pictures contain me in boxers. Mildly nsfw/nsfs.



This is what I look like in this pair of boxers. Below each picture will be a close up of the patterns.

Biting (Even if it is someone's idea of a joke)

My friend was over at my house today...he has a bit of an odd habit. When he has to go I give him a hug, then because he thinks that I THINK am a vampire (I have yet to come out and say that it is the truth) he thought he would be funny to lightly bite my neck (on the right side, not where the carotid artery is) while we were still embracing...The first time this happened I was like, "Ok, now it's MY turn" and I lightly bit him back (on the left side, the one that the carotid artery IS). I think there is something in our natures (a vampire's that is) that makes us "overreact" when we get bitten....something to do with the fact that we feel that someone is trying to take our blood...but we DO tend to overreact... I also think that for us there is something sexual about it....probably because basically as soon as we become old enough to be interested in sex we make the connection between blood and sex....sort of like good food and sex for humans....I was lucky that I caught myself. I still bit him (it would have looked odd if I did not given what I had said...) but I forced myself to do it in an extremely light manner (I probably bit him with less force than he bit me). The problem with all of this is that the friend does not know how close I was to biting him (rules be damned) and taking his blood. Every time he does it it gets harder and harder to control myself when I do it back (he expects me to do it...and at this point I probably could not stop myself even if I wanted to). I do not wasnt to hurt this person because he means a great deal to me, but I cannot bring myself to tell him to stop...even if it means my biting him and seriously injuring him.

Beef Blood

It totally rules to be able to cook when no one is home... I made some bean dip with beef on Tuesday and i only used half of the beef to make it. so I collected the blood from that half and put it into a small cup and drank it. It tasted so good....had sort of a spicy quality going down....and it gave me energy for the entire day. Then yesterday I made more and used the rest of the beef. I drank the blood from that too.... I actually think i creeped out my friend because he asked me to come into the computer room and help him relay his fortune that I had read for him to his girlfriend...I still had the blood in my hands and I was like, "Here hold this for me..." It gave me enough energy to last until today....actually i was not even hungry the entire day....I did not even notice that I had not eaten anything at all the entire day until 2ish when I went biking w/ some friends. I still was not hungry but I was like, "Whoa! I have not had anything to eat all day...." My first meal of the day actually occurred at around 5:30ish....Funny how just a little blood can give you enough energy to go the entire day without eating anything. I still feel like I'm up for a run....but I'll save that for later tonight.

Venison

Tomorrow morning I will be having venison blood, among other things for breakfast. Even though it is an animal's blood, it still nourishes me and I am totally hyped up for it!

Redirected

A lot of these posts are redirected from my old blog. Those that have been redirected are marked with an " * ".

My Vampiric Playlist

Recently I have found that music is a form of substitute for blood... It calms me down. So here is my vampiric playlist. Boulevard of Broken Dreams - Green Day Rooftops - Lost Prophets Last Train Home - Lost Prophets 二つの鼓動と赤い罪 (two beats and red sin)- ON/OFF Wake Up - Lost Prophets Sending Postcards From a Plane - Fall Out Boy Sugar, We're Going Down - Fall Out Boy
All Again for you - We The Kings
Animal I Have Become - Three Days Grace
August Is Over - We The Kings
白夜 (white night) - 宮本
Check Yes Juliet - We The Kings
Disturbia - Rhianna
Don't Speak Liar - We The Kings
Dragostea Din Tei - O-Zone
Duck and Run - Three Doors Down
Headlines Read Out... - We The Kings
Inner Universe - Yoko Kanno
Let's See How Far We've Come - Matchbox 20
Sakura Drops - Utada Hikaru
Numb - Lincoln Park
Paradise Lost - Hollywood Undead
The Quiet - We The Kings
Riot - Three Days Grace
Secret Valentine - We The Kings
Skyway Avenue - We The Kings
I tend to listen to these songs at night when I'm supposed to be sleeping...Nocturnal, remember? I now know most of these by heart...

*The Urge to Tell Others

One of the things that really "bites" (can't help but put a few of these in) about being a vampire is the urge to tell others what we are. I believe that this stems from the fact that while we go through all of the changes that we are experiencing, we tend to get lonely and think that we are the only one of our kind (at least in the immediate area...). For me, I tend not to get too depressed...my cats help me cheer up... but I still feel lonely. I've always been something of a loner...I do not have any brother or sisters and I've always had only a small group of friends... so being alone is nothing new to me. But, lately I've been feeling that I am the only one of my kind around me. This may be true, but I do not know.

All that I know is that I have had the intense urge to tell someone what I am... I almost told my friend while camping what I am...but then he said "If it was anyone else going through the light sensitivity, he would just think they were going Goth or Emo..." Then I knew that I could never tell him...

It was the single most depressing thing I have ever thought.

There is also another friend that I would consider telling, but I need to do it in person... you cannot just e-mail someone about this, even if she probably would believe you... I'll just have to wait for when I next see her...

if she has any questions I would tell her though that she should e-mail me at

sanguin_serafin@realvamp.zzn.com

only about vampire matters though...for everything else she should just use my regular e-mail...